Out in the Cold

Its winter, and I am shaking with the cold
but this year is worse than any other
the cold burns my skin and pierces me
right into my soul and bones

I cannot stop trembling, cannot anymore
I feel so alone that my heart hurts
and is destroying itself and my body
only because my soul is cold

The only thing I can see now in my mind
is the visage of death hovering above me
if only I had someone to hold my body
in her arms and make my soul warm again

But I can no longer fight for it
I have lost the last of my strength
I can barely move and think now
my only hope now lies with no one

For no one shall care, not even I anymore
I have lost the desire for everything
I am now just a zombie walking the earth
dark and empty, and with no destination

I am just walking, thinking of the future
Wishing to go away from where I stand now
to change and retrieve my lost selfness
my way of being happy without feeling

But I cant go away anymore
I no more have a place to go
where I'll be welcome by someone
I can just stay here and wait

And wait I shall do, but this trembling
is destroying me, I can't control it
and it's spreading through my entire body
consuming me in the process

And I can only watch silently
wait for someone to come rescue me
take me into her warm embrace
and make me whole again...

© César Vicente